echidna | ❄ sixth reminder

❄ sixth reminder

[ morning ; 1338 benny road ]

[ Jade can't help but feel something is wrong this morning when she wakes up. She feels like she's missed something, almost like she's been asleep for a long time. She stumbles out of bed, feeling a little fuzzy, noticing the changes to her room. The window's been repaired, there's a backpack that she didn't have before with half finished homework on the desk. She doesn't really start to feel concerned until she looks at the calendar on her wall, which has been flipped over to October.

That can't be right.

She grabs it from the wall, bursts out into the hallway still in her nightgown and clutching it to her chest. ]

Karkat? Gamzee?

[ phone ]

Hi Mayfield! Long time no talk! Or maybe we did talk, but it wasn't me me, it was creepy drone me. I'm not really sure what happened, I can't remember anything since, hmmm, a couple weeks ago, I think, after the zombies. I don't remember going home, or being here, nothing! It's kind of scary, but I'm glad that I was a normal creepy drone and not a murderous creepy drone. I really hope that doesn't happen to me again. Have you ever had something like that happen to you? Not even just droning but, I don't know, something reeeeally creepy where you almost... don't exist. It's kind of scary.

Oh, and apparently I'm a girl scout now, hehe.

[ afternoon ; your front door ]

[ There is some pretty persistent knocking at your front door right now. If and when you get around to answering it, you will find Jade on your doorstep, wagon stacked high with boxes of cookies behind her. She is looking particularly adorable right now, all dressed up in a girl scout's uniform. ]

Hi!! Do you like cookies?

[ phone; fail filter to eridan ]

Eridan? Hi, um... how are you?

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[He hadn't realized he needed this, but he does, and he is quicker to return the embrace than he usually would be. It's hard to care about his pride when he's actually voluntarily talking about this with her, even if it's in a vague way.]

Yeah.

Maybe I just don't want to be told it's okay I failed. Am I completely shitfucked in the pan or what?

If I told anyone it would be you.

You might be, just a little. [ She laughs softly, embracing him as tightly as she can manage. ] But that's okay, and messing up or making mistakes is okay, and talking about it is also okay.

Okay.

We can talk, maybe. No promises.

You probably don't want to hear this shit now, though, do you? You just got back and I already have you awash in waves of my own pointless melodrama.

Sounds good!

I wouldn't mind listening to it right now, but I also am very hungry.

Yeah. Sorry.

We can go get some breakfast or something, then.

Yay! [ and she gives one last squeeze before letting him go, grabbing his hand and leading the way to the kitchen. ] I am really happy to be back, even if this place is horrible half the time.

Yeah, sure.

[He seems pretty distracted and not completely paying attention to her, but he'll follow her to the kitchen.]

[ Jade notices this, but isn't entirely sure what to do about it. She sort of wants to talk about things now, feels a little worked up by it, but doesn't want to push him more than she already has. Breakfast proves to be a suitable distraction for her, because as soon as she sees it, smells it, she feels like she hasn't eaten in weeks. She settles herself down and digs in, but once she's slowed in stuffing her face she can't help but feel like the silence is a little awkward. ]

[The problem is he's made up his mind to try and talk about it, but he can't stop thinking about it now that he has. It scares him a little and he's not sure what he agreed to so he just sort of absently sits and eats handfuls of cornflakes without milk. He does want to talk now, but he probably needs a little pushing if it's going to happen.]

[ She watches him from across the table, swinging her legs and rolling her fork between her fingers. She props her chin up in her hand, setting the fork down to drum her fingers against the table instead. And she'll just go ahead and blurt out; ]

I think maybe we should talk right now!

Not in the kitchen. Fucking nosy as always.

[It's not a no, but he'll let her finish her breakfast.]

[ At that, Jade proceeds to inhale the rest of her breakfast. Not that there was that much left. And admittedly it is pretty much at the same speed as she was eating before. She hops out of her chair when she's finished, fuck dishes that's what drone parents are for. ]

Your room?

Sure.

[With that, getting up with a hasty scrape of the chair on the floor and walking back there. He doesn't stop to make sure she's following, although he assumes she will and part of him hopes she doesn't. He doesn't know if he can really do this.]

[ Jade's following close behind, albeit silently, a little lost in thought. She's not really sure what he's going to tell her, so she's trying to relive old conversations and piece together some idea from that. ]

[Letting her into the room and closing the door behind him. And now that he's done that he looks very trapped. He's made a big deal out of this and now he can't back out even though she'll think he's pathetic or worse she'll think this was nothing to care about at all.

He really trusts her but his ease around her is partially explained by how little she really understands his world, and he's about to change that, and he doesn't know if he's ever felt so scared and vulnerable even if he's trying not to let it show.]

[ She settles herself down on his bed, patting the empty spot beside her and trying not to think too much about how cagey he suddenly looks. She doesn't say anything, just offers a small smile and waits for him to speak first. ]

[He sits.

He's still, and doesn't say anything for a minute, trying to arrange his thoughts and figure out where to start. If he's going to explain this, there's no way around one other issue, and ironically it feels almost easier to talk about.]

So.

What do you know about the hemospectrum? You've seen my blood, at least.

I know a little, but not that much.

[ Most of her knowledge comes from hearing Eridan talk about it, so yeah, not the best source of information. ]

Okay.

Well, it's a caste system based on the color of our blood. You know where we all stand, because it's the color we type with.

[Not in his case, but that's blatantly obvious right now.]

So, you know, the highest are the seadwellers. Feferi's blood makes her royalty. Out of the landdwellers, blue bloods are highbloods. Then you have Gamzee, who's the highest possible for a landdweller. On the other hand, once you start getting below green, you're a lowblood. If you remember Aradia's color, that's the lowest possible blood color on the hemospectrum.

It's sort of hard to explain if you don't have it what the point is. Highbloods have larger hives, more things. They'll probably grow up to be leaders. Lowbloods are more likely to be culled if there's something wrong with them or they can't defend themselves. That kind of thing.

That's how it works, more or less.

[ Jade nods politely, listening carefully. It makes enough sense-- well, not sense exactly, because it seems unfair to sort people like that, but she can certainly grasp the idea well enough. She tries to put the rest of it together herself. They type in their blood color, just like her and her friends had used their eye colors, but Karkat had always typed in grey. She's seen his blood, his troll blood, though there was no difference at all between it and hers. ]

So then your blood is, [ she pauses to consider her word choice. ] different? Sort of like Aradia's but... different.

[ It's the best she can come up with. He probably won't take well to something like 'special', and she definitely doesn't want to use something like 'weird'. ]

You were hiding it?

Yes. I was hiding it. I had to hide it.

My blood isn't really sort of like Aradia's. Call it what it is, it's bright red and that may not mean anything to you but to us, it's not a color blood is supposed to be. If I was Aradia's color then I would still be essentially scum, but at least I would have a value. Unless you want to say lower than zero is a value, maybe if we're counting negative numbers. I don't know.

The point is, my blood is a mutation, and mutants aren't supposed to be allowed to live. I should have been culled the moment I was born. The fact that I was allowed to pupate and was chosen by a lusus and wasn't completely erased from existence as soon as anyone noticed what color I was is just not something that happens in our society.

[ Jade is quiet for several minutes, thinking over what she’s been told. Her perspective is slanted, to say the least, given that she is a human and not a troll, and can’t help but reason out troll culture from a human perspective. For now, she refrains on commenting on what he’s told her, opting to investigate further. ]

So your friends don’t know?

Some of them do. Terezi. Gamzee apparently, although I'm not sure he knows he knows. He never brought it up until he decided he actually cared about blood color and was going to kill all of us. Kanaya knows. I don't know, some of the others might have figured it out.

I was planning to tell them all. I just didn't want them to look down on me.

I don't think they would. You are lucky to have a lot of really great friends, and they are lucky to have you too.

Maybe. Even probably. Whatever.

That's not the whole story. There's a reason why I was allowed to live.

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