[He really appreciates that embrace right now, although he doesn't do much to show it besides not shifting away from it.]

I couldn't do that. But it's not like it did them a lot of good.

God. I'm just a tightly wrapped bundle of issues upon issues just waiting to burst and I recognize how pathetic I sound dwelling on them like this. The pity me crap is getting almost as tired as the self-hate.

I'm sorry. I haven't always been this bad.