[ Wow, now that's really a lot to take in. Jade 'hmm's and 'ah's thoughtfully where appropriate, nodding her head now and then. ]

It doesn't sound selfish or pathetic to me. That sounds like a lot of responsibility to give someone, especially when that someone is young and still figuring things out. [ She scoots closer to him, places a hand on his back and smiles gently. She doesn't know if she really gets all of it, but she feels like she understands a lot more. ] It's not very fair, when you think about it. I think that you sound really brave, and strong, for even trying in the first place. A lot of people probably wouldn't even do that! And it isn't even just trying, because you have succeeded a lot too.