[Something in expression crumples a little at this admission because the truth is he's given his whole heart to something he has no control over.
He can't do it. He can't lose Tavros and Feferi and Nepeta again, or even Equius and Eridan and Vriska. He can't lose Gamzee. He's lost all of them once and now he's been given them back with the chance to really understand how much he cares about all of them and to do better by them. Losing them again seems to be beyond his abilities to cope.]
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[Something in expression crumples a little at this admission because the truth is he's given his whole heart to something he has no control over.
He can't do it. He can't lose Tavros and Feferi and Nepeta again, or even Equius and Eridan and Vriska. He can't lose Gamzee. He's lost all of them once and now he's been given them back with the chance to really understand how much he cares about all of them and to do better by them. Losing them again seems to be beyond his abilities to cope.]